Sunday, June 27, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
As Vinny attacks my feet...
... I realize that I am happy.
The weight is off my chest, and I pushed through the pain, quickly--to my amazement. I suppose I did so, because I was just so sick of the crap. My life is solid again; the road I am traveling down is more like a Tennessee road, again, and less like a New Jersey road. And my mom says, "Well, maybe you didn't love him." But, that's the thing, I loved him so much that I was blinded; I was hurting myself.
I've already ventured out, met someone, and I am myself again--minus the brain. I desire to play and achieve my tennis goals again, and I've been going outside more--not just because I teach from 8:30 until 3. It's still difficult to get over my trust issues, but I already feel myself relaxing... a nice feeling after six months of tension. I am moving into a new place, and I am living with a friend this time, lol. I feel goofy again, and yes, I am still too snappy, but I'm working on that one :).
I feel whole again, and I DO deserve that.
<3<3
The weight is off my chest, and I pushed through the pain, quickly--to my amazement. I suppose I did so, because I was just so sick of the crap. My life is solid again; the road I am traveling down is more like a Tennessee road, again, and less like a New Jersey road. And my mom says, "Well, maybe you didn't love him." But, that's the thing, I loved him so much that I was blinded; I was hurting myself.
I've already ventured out, met someone, and I am myself again--minus the brain. I desire to play and achieve my tennis goals again, and I've been going outside more--not just because I teach from 8:30 until 3. It's still difficult to get over my trust issues, but I already feel myself relaxing... a nice feeling after six months of tension. I am moving into a new place, and I am living with a friend this time, lol. I feel goofy again, and yes, I am still too snappy, but I'm working on that one :).
I feel whole again, and I DO deserve that.
<3<3
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